There was a competition put on by Animal Pak and bodybuilding.com that I applied for. Only 5 people got in and you got a bunch of free gear if you got in. Well I applied for it, I thought I was inbecause the admin of it commented on my post, but I ended up not being chosen. I was really wanting this because I thought that it would push me and keep me motivated. But then I realized something. I have been relying on other peoples validation to keep me motivated. What I mean by validation is I wanted to be the "expert" and the "tough guy" on these forums and competitions. Then I had an epiphany. I am not relying on myself to keep me motivated! That's the DUMBEST thing that I could have ever do!! What happens when someone doesn't validate my picture or my story! All of the sudden, I am not pushing myself. So I am done with my bodybuilding.com account. I'm not going to post any pictures there or any stats. I can keep them myself. From now on, the only motivation I need is from me.
